Kado Iseng-iseng

Beberapa waktu yang lalu, tepatnya tanggal 11 Juli 2018, salah satu sobat misqueenqu, Nadiah, berulang tahun. Nah, karena merasa belum kasih kado yang proper, akhirnya kemarin aku iseng-iseng ngelukis doi. Yaaa ini juga bukan kado yang proper juga sih ya sebetulnya, yang penting sudah bikin sesuatu yang otentik asli bikinan tanganku dan yang jelas ngga bisa ditemukan dimana pun. #sobatmisqueenlagingeles HAHAA

Nadiah adalah salah satu anggota tim di unit yang baru kurang lebih delapan bulan ini aku singgahi. Ngga tau kenapa, sejak hari-hari pertama ditempatkan di sana, rasanya cocok dan nyambung banget ngobrol sama doi. Usut punya usut, ternyata kalau ditinjau dari segi horoscope (yang kebetulan kami berdua percaya kalo orang-orang dengan horoscope yang sama biasanya tipikal sifatnya sama), ternyata dia adalah seorang Cancerian. Cancer dan Pisces itu kebanyakan cocok, mungkin karena sama-sama "makhluk air" ya. Selain itu, dari pengalaman yang sudah-sudah, aku pun punya beberapa sahabat yang berbintang Cancer dan cocok dari berbagai sisi, misal sama-sama mellow-an, perasa, dan mikiran. Jadi yaa makin klop deh temenan sama Cancer cabang Balongsari satu ini.

Lebih dari itu, Nadiah adalah orang yang loyal, gercep abis kalau dimintain tolong, dan sebetulnya ceria kok meskipun di awal-awal pertemuan agak malu-malu ala anak introvert gitu hihihi. Dari yang cuma cerita-cerita tentang hobi dan interest, makin kesini makin ngobrolin tentang kehidupan. Mulai cerita receh-receh, sampai cerita yang dalem banget bagai sumur bor. Di kantor ketemu dan cerita-cerita, pas sudah pulang juga kadang masih lanjut lewat WA. Mulai saling menghina, sampai saling mengingatkan. #sisterfillah WKWK

Akhir kata, nggak afdol rasanya kalau nggak diakhiri dengan doa. So, Deedee, semoga ente selalu diliputi kebahagiaan dan keceriaan, dijauhkan dari kegalauan (becoz anxienty kills), dijauhkan dari hawa-hawa negatif (ini doa buat kita berempat sih #eh), makin kreatif (dengan laptop baru #eaa), sekeluarga selalu dalam lindungan Allah SWT, dan selalu ikhlas menerima segala kelebihanku (kelebihan berat badan, kelebihan waktu nganggur ngisengin ente, dan lain sebagainya).

Once again, happy birthday Deedee! 

Salam kompersa! Salam kompak persahabatan. *brofist*

Heartbroken

This morning, in the middle of KulineRun's hype (running event), my heart was broken seeing a picture shared by Rizal that captured a chaotic church near my neighborhood, less than 2 kms away from where I live. It was bombed. Turned out, that wasn't the one and only bombing today. There were two others that blew in two different churches, at about the same time, and dropping many casualties. How could a human do an inhumane thing like that?? I was sad, angry and scared at the same time. The terrorist thing I watched back then was somewhere far. But this one, it's like.. It's happening in front of my face. So close.

It's more than twelve hours since the incident, but I still don't feel okay. It's like I'm holding my tears all day long. I actually feel like I don't wanna write anything. My mood was just dropped ever since. I tried to draw, but my feelings don't even change. Even I feel like I can't fake a smile for tomorrow's event where I have to be the host.

Tried to recreate some artist's drawing I found on Pinterest

I hope tomorrow everything will be okay when I wake up. Just like when I was a kid, when I was mad to my mom and went to sleep, in the morning I forget what happened the night before. Poof! Like nothing happen.


At the end, I wanna say that my heart goes to the victims and their families. Hope this city will recover as soon as possible, and be strong as it's always been.

Dari Perempuan untuk Perempuan

Gara-gara seharian nggak kemana-mana dan disana-sini lagi banyak yang merayakan Hari Kartini, siang ini aku terinspirasi untuk menggambar dan nge-quotes 'ala-ala'.

Di gambar kedua, aku menulis ulang quotes yang selama ini jadi mantraku untuk terus berkembang tanpa perlu merasa kecil hati atas pencapaian orang lain, tanpa perlu iri dengki, dan tentunya tanpa menjatuhkan orang lain juga. Bunga mekar melalui proses yang berbeda-beda satu dengan lainnya; banyak yang mekar bersamaan tapi tidak sedikit juga yang mekarnya belakangan. 

Begitupun kita.

Kita dan orang lain tentu "punya" prosesnya sendiri-sendiri dalam meraih sukses. Ukuran kesuksesan masing-masing pun pasti berbeda (begitupun hambatannya). Saat kita melihat seseorang sukses, mungkin sebenarnya dia masih struggling dengan hal-hal berat yang kita tidak ketahui. Disamping itu, bisa jadi tujuan hidup kita bukan tujuan hidup orang lain, dan sebaliknya. Jadi belum tentu kesuksesan yang kita nilai dari orang lain adalah tujuan hidupnya yang sebenarnya. Begitupun kita di mata orang lain. Istilahnya 'wang-sinawang' kalau kata orang Jawa.

Kalau buat aku sih yang terpenting berusaha melakukan segala sesuatu dengan sebaik-baiknya supaya bisa "mekar dengan indah". Dan tentunya, harus percaya diri dengan apapun yang sedang kita jalani meskipun mungkin bagi orang lain kita belum dipandang sukses atau masih dipandang sebelah mata. Kalau sudah begitu, tinggal merapalkan mantra lain, "No one is responsible to your happiness except you".

Terakhir, aku mau mengucapkan..

Selamat berproses dan semangat Hari Kartini untuk seluruh wanita hebat yang membaca ini. :)

Wedding tanpa Pre-Wedding

Akhir bulan nanti, aku dan Rizal akan merayakan mensiversary kami yang keenam. Kadang waktu ngobrol kami bertanya ke satu sama lain, “Kita beneran udah nikah, nih?” Karena memang rasanya prosesi pernikahan itu kayak mimpi. Kalau kita bangun rumah, berbulan-bulan atau bertahun-tahun, pasti ada wujud yang bisa kita tinggali dan nikmati sampai lama. Tapi kalau pernikahan, persiapan berbulan-bulan, akan kita nikmati hanya dalam waktu sehari dan dikenang dalam bentuk foto. Nggak kaget kalau banyak pasangan mulai mengabadikan momen pacaran mereka lewat pre-wedding photo, yang nantinya juga akan dipajang di tempat pernikahan.

Sayang seribu sayang, aku dan Rizal bukan tipikal orang yang bisa bergaya dengan luwes di depan kamera. Jadi, mengabadikan momen pacaran lewat pre-wedding photo sudah jelas dicoret dari to-do list kami. Dulu sih sempat punya keinginan difotoin sama Dhea dan Laras, sahabat SMA-ku, dengan pertimbangan kalau difotoin teman dekat, suasana jadi lebih santai dan kami bisa lebih "enjoy the session" (hazek). Apalagi kami tumbuh dan berkembang bersama sejak remaja, taste dan konsep foto pasti jadi masalah kecil dan tinggal eksekusi. Namun.. Rencana tinggal lah rencana manakala (((manakala))) Dhea dan Laras sama-sama berangkat S2 ke luar negeri di saat yang hampir berbarengan. Hiks. 

Akhirnya, aku mengonsep pernikahan tanpa foto pre-wedding dan menggantinya dengan lukisan wajah. Sekitar H-2 bulan aku mulai mengontak salah satu kakak kelas SMA yang super jago lukis, Mas Rio, yang saat itu sedang persiapan tugas akhir di ISI. Sebetulnya cuma modal kirim foto kita lewat Line, Mas Rio sudah bisa mengeksekusi lukisan sesuai yang kita minta. Waktu itu permintaanku adalah perpaduan antara realis dan surealis menggunakan media cat air, dengan tone yang cukup cerah tanpa meninggalkan ciri khas utama lukisan ala Mas Rio yang memiliki kesan agak mystical. Tapi karena kesibukan masing-masing, akhirnya saya baru setor foto H-2 mingguan. Itu pun sempat ganti foto di sekitaran H-seminggu untuk mendapatkan hasil yang lebih detail. Well, bukan Bintang namanya kalau bukan deadliner. Pun hasil akhirnya pun baru selesai dan diantarkan ke hotel (yang kebetulan bersebelahan dengan venue) di H-1 malam hari karena posisi cat air yang baru kering, hahaha. 

Ini dia penampakan lukisan wajah kami dengan ukuran 20RS atau 50 x 75 cm yang sampai detik ini masih belum dipasang di tembok.

Untuk piguranya sendiri aku pesan di daerah perempatan Sagan, sekitar H-2 dan minta jadi H-1 pernikahanku. Super mepet yhaaa, syukurlah semesta masih berpihak ke si Deadliner kali ini sehingga semua bisa selesai tepat waktu dan sesuai harapan.

Mas Rio menambahkan headpiece berupa flower crown untukku dan twig crown untuk Rizal untuk kesan yang lebih maskulin.

Mas Rio juga melukiskan bunga-bunga yang tampak seperti terbang keluar dari motif bajuku. Gemas sekaliii..

Aku suka sekali dengan sentuhan detail yang diberikan Mas Rio. Mulai dari lukisan wajah yang sangat mirip (bahkan aku merasa lebih cantik dalam lukisan, hahaha), sampai detail gradasi pewarnaan di rambut, pakaianku, di dedaunan yang super banyak di sekitarku dan Rizal, di headpiece, sampai kesan vintage pada kertas gulung sehingga tampak seperti perkamen. Selain itu, finishing bercak dari efek watercolor ini benar-benar membuat aku jatuh cinta.

Tertarik? Kamu bisa cari Mas Rio di Facebook dengan nama Rio Kurnia (atau klik disini) atau add Line ID "Rio Kurnia".

Jangan lupa yah, persiapkan semuanya jauh-jauh hari dan jangan jadi deadliner seperti saya kalau nggak kuat sport jantung.

Ciao!

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This is what I did to kill the time in this Easter long weekend besides preparing some Entrepreneur project with my team. Yep, making gif animation. I found this tutorial then tried to follow it. On the first trial, I was failed. Super failed. Couldn't save the animation because, I don't know how it could happen, my Photoshop was like too busy and need a force quit. Maybe because I put too much frames there or I opened too many tabs and windows so it gets confused and hang, and the worse I didn't even save my work yet. *sigh*

So this is my second trial and I think I like to make some other things like this. :D

The words was taken from Tortured Soul's song. The song I've shared in my old post; the song I do really love, the song that has a deep meaning to me, and the song that reminds me of my man. Happy seven, L! :)

And anyway, HAPPY EASTER for you and for all my friend who celebrate. May His grace always be surrounding us. God bless you. :)

Sketching

Ok, the final exam week has began already. But I don't know why I have no chemistry to study or even doing my final papers. I'm a deadliner and a procrastinator. The brilliant ideas to be written on won't be coming till the deadline is really close. So I just spent this D-1 final exam for blog-walking and tada! I discovered a blog that really inspiring me and put her as my role model right away. Rach from VizBasix.

I like sketching but I can't sketch. Hahaha. I didn't know how to start and who to follow. From her blog I found a link of sketching tutorial. So today, I've already made 2 sketches. First one is the sketch I follow her tutorial. And the second one is the sketch of Clara Devi in her old archive (I really meant to sketch her but I think the result is way to far from the original photo HAHAHA). Well, I don't feel confidence with the result but I think this is a good start. :p

Crudely retouched in photoshop. Somebody please teach meeeeee!!! :O

I remembered my childhood dream when I was sketching. Not engineer or doctor or even president as many kids dreaming. I was dreaming to be a.... *uhuk*... A fashion designer. GAHAHAHAHA the dream that is not reflecting myself now; my lifestyle, my dressing style, and my careless-and-a-bit-boyish attitude. :))

Ok, that's all for today. I'll try to study anything tonight. Ciao!

Best Feeling Ever

Last weekend was awesome because I FINALLY (caps lock + bold :p) could get my own quality time for refreshment. On Saturday I got an escape for a little picnic with my man. I tried a downhill track surround his villa (or whatsoever it called) in Cangkringan, Kaliurang with his downhill bike (I feel cool riding it anyway :p), had a delizioso soto for breakfast near his villa, had a long time warm chatting and cuddling, and a short tea time with the villa keeper's family. A super lovely day ever. :)

After that, I went to Creatia's work station to help my friend, Ahong, making a craft project from wool. This was so tiring yet exciting! I love making craft. :D

In the next day I went to Craft Carnival. I was super duper excited because all this time I could only watch their crafts and works from blogs. I also joined a workshop of making postcard from stencil and brush made by Mas Ojan (Nest of Ojanto), my favorite crafter.

 I also bought some old sticker as souvenir for my man and a pocket note book made by Tarlen Handayani that I've just discovered her blog lately. Cool, eh? I love BW coloring and I love a mysterious picture like this. :D

I hope I could join many craft workshops and go to this kind of event as much as possible to appreciate and buy their craft (since I didn't bring much money to last Sunday Craft Carnival *sigh*).

Happiness is the state of mind. You don't wait for it to come, you create one. Do something you really like because you're only live once.Then you're gonna get the best feeling after doing what you like as where your passion run into. -bonscha

So, next project: KNITTING!
:D

October Flies Fast

I kinda lost my rhythm of life lately. My schedule gets messy even I often lose control of my temper (sorry Love, I always put you as my temper victim). I'm working on a yearbook organizer named Colorful Creatia now. On its first year merger with Colorful Photography, we usually have a meeting on late night til early morning because in the afternoon we're busy with our college activities. It's like we set and started everything up from the bottom. I'm happy to work with many young talented, creative, and passionate people.

Beside that, I still challenged myself to accept many activities that propose to me, especially singing. I love to sing, but I don't like the rehearsal. It takes too much time though. And sometimes it becomes exhausting especially when it take place in the night. So I had to divide my nights into several activities such as meetings, rehearsals, and do assignments.

This semester's assignments are cruel. Every subject has their own difficulties of assignments and I sometimes fed up with them. I always did everything in rush and become a last minute person. The big problem is, I have a really bad time management since I'm a kind of yes-man person and it's like I wanna put almost everything as my priority. Bad!

I feel that this semester, especially this month, flies fast. I always hear the radio announcer asking "What's your weekend plan?" in Thursday and read in twitter some people saying "hate to face Monday" on Sunday. It keeps rolling on every week.

I really thank God that I've got a man that can be my personal manager, an understanding friend, a sharing partner, a wise adviser, and a temper and stress reducer. He keeps remind me to limiting the jobs that come to me and also remind me a simple thing such as eat. He is also funny and we usually laugh at our own silly things we did. He hugged me when I'm angry and rub my back anytime I feel tired. Those are my best cure of all bad moods and he always there for me.

Well, this is almost the end of October and I hope next month I could do better than this. More organized and putting the primary activity as my priority. I'll do everything you've suggested me, L. Thanks. :)

A drawing made by me