31 December 2009

last post on 2009

thanks for giving me so much sadness, happiness, tears, laughs, and much more lessons of life.
:) :)

30 December 2009

RIP Gus Dur

the former president of Indonesia has passed away today at 6:45 pm.
frankly, i really lost his wise, jokes, and his simple thought, especially when he say "gitu aja kok repot".
so far, i see politicians usually think hard for some simple problems. or they're trying to look smart by thinking hard. no one could have his unique and simple thoughts.

Good Bye Abdurrahman Wahid.. Good Bye Gus Dur..
may you get the best place beside Him

27 December 2009


it's random and blured. why does it still seem so beautiful?

the answer will never explained obviously, life said.
but you can always find every-single-missing-puzzle-part to combine into a whole beautiful picture of life.


joy to the world!
:) :)

sorry for late posting. got many things to do during my dad's holiday at home so i couldn't reach the internet as much as days before.

:) :)

24 December 2009

Buat Kamu - Syaharani

bintang2 tak bicara
walaupun seribu nada
kau nyanyikan malam ini

kau tau cinta bukan tabir kata
tak perlu kau tunggu slamanya
kau impikan malam ini

tak perlu dekat jika hati bisa rasakan hadirnya
tak perlu terungkap sebab hidup rahasia
bagiku cukup untuk nikmati apa yang ada dan terjadi
semua kan mengerti

this song means a lot for me. especially now. :')

22 December 2009


the room's filled already. but too much people inside! too crowded!
and i can feel my head's spinning and i can't breathe well.
i'm weak and limp.
thanks for hurting.

“When it comes to affairs of love and hurt, you have to wait for your heart to learn what your head already knows, then You can break free”

21 December 2009


don't ever think that being lonely and empty is stifling.
emptiness sometimes worth
or at least don't make it worse

this is actually a self-suggestion. yes, for myself. i feel like losing something that i haven't even get it yet. give up? almost. i'm an inch to the despair line.

20 September 2009

Eid Mubarrak

dear readers, happy Eid Mubarrak! :D
this is a special day for me and for us who are Moslem. but the fact, i spent almost a whole this-first-Eid-day for just SLEEPING! ahahaha. i dont know why i feel so sleepy this afternoon. i slept like i just took

but before i was going to my dreamland, i did a little tradition w my little family. it called "sungkeman"; time for forgive each others' mistakes n begging for any good prayer from the olds. :)

bytheway, i'm gonna go to my parents' hometown in East Java; Ponorogo and Surabaya-Madura.

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yes, this is the moment i'm waiting the most. the time when i can meet my big family, and of course (hoping to) get money from the olds. ahahaa :))

30 July 2009


have u ever feel like losing something?
u've ever got it. but that time, u just wanna throw it away. so far away from your face that u can't even see it again. moreover, you really HATE it.
but when it lost n disappear, u'll miss it. really confusing, uh?


a really simple word but means everything.

it's been 2 days since his last text saying "ok, take care". well, that should be enough for me coz that's wad actually i wanted before. not to overprotect n over-care.
but, oh, come ooon, i'm now sick. and the text just say good nite will be enough for me before heading for the pills n pillow.

alright, just try to think positive. maybe we just waiting each other. he waits my text, so do i. wait for his text.
wait for one of us fix it up.
or break it up.

is it the time to say goodbye?

01 May 2009


this is one of my favorite arrangement of Overjoyed. feels more groovy, isn't it ? :D

30 April 2009

i'm here.. ;)

this is actually my third blog. and i was invited by my friend, dhea, to join blogspot. she told me that this site is more atractive than my previous blog on wordpress. i'm a nubie here and i'm sorry if there's many lackness. but our lackness mustn't be our weakness, must it ? so, just enjoy it guys ! :)